The past little while, I have learned alot. One of the hardest things I went through not so long ago, were because of the thoughts I allowed into my mind. to give myself a little credit, I would say that the adversary is trying particularity hard on me, because, I know that at time the spirit speaks through me. and i know that is not good for the devils work. Not to say I wasn't well equipped, he just used some pretty interesting timing. I recognized, he can work threefold, with doubtful thoughts, fear, and temptations. If you imagine my stronghold in my mind like the Teton dam. It was worked on and worked on until it sort of collapsed. My experience was pretty... dramatic, it was actually terrible. but trees that grow up in a windy environment become stronger. Presdient Nelson said that in the coming DAYS, it won't be possible to survive spiritually without the constant influence of the Holy Ghost. I think that in a way, this terrible experience has stimulated my roots to grow faster and spread farther. As I was pondering about why this happened, those thoughts came into mind and I thought, if President Nelson gave a warning to the world about the coming days, i thought I might expect to hear others having similar struggles. then the other day we had something called Zone conference. and President Loveland said that in the missionaries emails recently, he had seen more emails about the adversary than usual. It's strange that it would happen like that, to an unusual amount. The seed of doubt can make your hope go away. and it will be more difficult to see things with an eye of faith... but hang in there, keep praying and fortify yourselves. Learn to control your thoughts,
45let virtue garnish thy thoughts unceasingly; then shall thy confidence wax strong in the presence of God;
Study the truth, and cling to it
And make sure that you are building your foundation now for winds that are sure to come.
We've also been seeing some other miracles here, like. I met a woman named Kimberly Dawn Wright who said that it was so weird that we would knock on her door yesterday. she said that at church (one she had been going to comfortably for quite a while) and that in the middle of church she got this feeling and the best way she knew to describe the feeling was, this isn't where you should be. And so she put a little prayer in the prayer box that said, please help me with discernment and clarity and guidance. what's really weird is how I had met a woman named Kimberly Dawn Wright in my last area. and I only got to teach her once and then I moved areas. So I met two Kimberly Dawn Wrights. The other one I saw at a place called Highrise in a city called rogers, and I went out to the parking lot to talk to her but she had already left and I was disappointed. then we were driving around in a little boonies type town called Garfield, on our way to this members home, driving with a member, and I saw this van at this park and right away I just said we should stop at that park, even though we were headed somewhere. ANd it was that girl from a couple cities over that I had missed talking to a week ago. Kimberly Dawn Wright at the park with her family.
Elder Sam Larsen